Two weeks in

We’re almost two weeks into summer! In two weeks I’ve:

*Gotten together with many friends! We went to IKEA, went to garage sales, had friends over for pizza, had friends over for summer food, and went with friends to a fabulous park!

*Planned meals and went grocery shopping. Serena sat in a grocery cart like a big kid for the first time! We’ve been to Aldi, Trader Joe’s, and Costco. No problems and no big deal. I can do this!

*Made a summer meal. We grilled brats for the first time this summer and I made Mom’s potato salad.

*Survived huge thunderstorms and many people in the Twin Cities lost power for days! Luckily we never lost ours and we didn’t lose any trees. Just a couple miles from us there is now a sinkhole! Trevor is thankful he doesn’t have to drive Serena to daycare anymore because the sinkhole is on the road we took to get there!

Serena is doing great and is getting a bit better about taking naps. Cash Howard our cockapoo is still adjusting to Serena and I being home with him and is having a tough time. The weather has been all over the place and we’ve had lots of rain. Here’s hoping for a nice weather weekend!



Living the Dream- Day Two

It was a big decision but in the end I knew it was the right one for me. I decided to finish up the school year in my job at a high school and then call it quits. In the fall I won’t be going back. There are many reasons I decided to stay home with Serena, but I especially knew it was just going to be too hard to go back when my 7-week summer break ended. So now, I don’t have a summer break that will end, I am just home for good! I did love my job, which I will for sure get into more at some point.

It has been my dream for a long time to be a mama and to get to hang out with my baby all day, so now I am living the dream! Day one started out really smoothly but then little one was pretty cranky. She has a cold- stuffy nose and cough which isn’t fun.

She loves to fight naps. When she does take one it’s for 30-45 minutes tops! So I’m going to have to learn how to get stuff done while she’s awake!

Day two has been fun. My friend Michelle was in town for the day from Fergus Falls, so we went to IKEA, Panera Bread, and Archiver’s.

Serena actually did really well on our shopping trip. She absolutely loved spending time with Michelle and she mostly just chilled out and looked at all the people and things everywhere. She took a couple naps while we were out also. The car always helps with that! IKEA is one of my fave stores of all time. I didn’t shop for anything too exciting but I still managed to come home with lots of little items. Our biggest items were these two:

The Perbsy bin with lid $12.99 pictured above. I bought the grey one to use for recycling since we don’t have to sort it anymore! Can you tell I’m excited?! I couldn’t find it on the IKEA site anywhere so maybe it’s something they are phasing out?

klack tray

The Klack Tray for $7.99

I bought this to keep on one of our ottomans in the living room. I haven’t decided if I’m going to cover the inside with something or leave it plain.

I don’t go shopping for craft or scrapbooking supplies very often anymore, but Michelle and I always like to go to Archiver’s when she is in town and use our coupons. We actually both forgot our coupons but they had them on file with our phone numbers so we could use them anyway without physically having them! There is a $5 off any $5 or above item coupon right now, so I was able to use that towards this $8.99 Amy Tangerine embroidery kit item. I am excited to try it out!

amy tangerine

I ended the day playing with Serena in our living room in her fave spot to roll around on the floor. She has been rolling all over the place and scooting underneath things where she gets her legs stuck- under the couch, loveseat, TV bench, etc. Here’s an example. 🙂

Isn’t my Sere Lu just the cutest?!

My journey to motherhood

On November 6, 2012 something happened that I had dreamed about for a long time and at times questioned if it ever would. I became a mom.

Trevor and I were married in 2005. After about 4 years or so of marriage we decided we really wanted a child. We were both in high-paying jobs and got serious about paying down debt. The main thing that stood in the way was my type 1 diabetes. I got serious about having tight control, but something was making that quite difficult. It’s called “dawn phenomenon.” Every morning I would wake up with super high blood sugar, no matter how tightly it was controlled the rest of the day. At least in my case, it didn’t have anything to do with what I was eating or anything like that. It’s caused by hormones. I worked with my doctor and adjusted my insulin doses times again and again. For years I set an alarm to wake up in the middle of the night to give myself insulin. It would start to seem better but never got to where I felt comfortable.

During this time I went through a lot. I was laid off from my job. Trevor was laid off from his. I had some friendships fall apart. The homes around us started to go into foreclosure. Friends moved away. Our garage was broken into and our car stolen. I watched many many friends have babies, and have more of them. While I was jobless many people mentioned it was a good time for me to have a child. It was so tough for me. I wanted to have a child, but I knew my health wasn’t where it should be to have one, and I was working on it, but it was just taking a long time. Any job decisions I made we always had to consider the “what if.” I like to plan ahead, so it was hard. Eventually I ended up in the perfect job for me, and I also got a new doctor (after mine left the clinic I go to). Finally the pieces fell into place and I was comfortable with where my blood sugars were. But of course at this time Trevor also was working in a job where he was often traveling and out of town!

I had been working on my health for so long that I had always expected that once we started trying we’d have no problem. We had waited long enough, right? But when you’re apart as much as we were, that complicates things. That year it was a tough Christmas for me. Another month had come and I was starting to feel like maybe I never was going to be a mom. But only a couple of months later it finally happened. I was so happy and yet so scared at the same time. I knew my pregnancy as a diabetic was high risk. It took me a long time to not be afraid anymore and to be completely excited and believe my dream was actually becoming a reality. While I was pregnant the diabetes part was so consuming that I barely had time to think about the fact that I was pregnant with my first child. They say that having Type 1 Diabetes is like a part-time job on its own. While pregnant I checked my blood sugar about ten times a day. I also kept a log of everything I ate and all my insulin doses I took. I had appointments with my endocrinologist, nurse practitioner, or educator every few weeks and every time there were adjustments made to what I was eating and how much insulin I took and when I took it. I had the “normal” amount of OB appointments until my third trimester. At that point I had appointments twice a week.

And everything was going great. Then when I was 35 weeks pregnant and at one of my regular appointments my blood pressure was suddenly high. The decision was made that I would be put on bed rest immediately. I was on bed rest for ten days before they decided to induce me. 24 hours later (at 37 weeks) I gave birth to Serena Lucille, and she was perfectly healthy. It took years of work to get to that point, and here she finally was! My life was forever changed.

I share this story because while I went through all of this I felt quite alone. Maybe there is someone else out there who may read this and not feel so alone. It was helpful to find a book about diabetes and pregnancy, but I still have not encountered another type 1 diabetic with dawn phenomenon wanting to have a child. I also share this because I now appreciate that I had this dream for a long time and I am so blessed to now be a mom. This is just the way things were supposed to work out for me, and today I am happy.

A fresh start.

I’m starting a new adventure and new phase of my life so I felt that I also needed a new blog! I’ve been MIA from blogging for a while, but I miss it. I know there are a lot of things I want to finally take the time to share. I am also hoping I will have time to be creative and share some of that here. Welcome to my new spot.